Just a little update on my running. I've been doing really well lately and ran 4 miles straight on Tuesday night! It's the first time I've done that so it felt like a real accomplishment. I've been running 3 miles a day most other days including tonight. When daylight savings happens I'm going to have to start running in the mornings... ugh. :)
Anywho... things are going well. Next run is the Almond Bowl Run (3.2 miles) in Chico on this Sunday. Then the Run to Feed the Hungry on Thanksgiving here in Sacramento (3.2 miles). I'll hopefully throw in another run for December and January, but I'll definitely be running the Almond Blossom Run (6.4 miles) in February. Can't wait!
I'm on my way to a half marathon! Yay me! :) I'll try to do more updates on the running. Thanks for all the support. My friends and family are very proud of me and I appreciate it.
Even though life has been a bit interesting lately, I am in the best shape of my life and I am so happy to be surrounded by wonderful people all the time. Keep smiling and stay healthy! Love you all! xoxo
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Monday, October 29, 2007
I am...
I am... happy, intelligent, optimistic.
I give... everything I can, so much of myself, all of my heart.
I share... everything, anything, the best of me.
I say... what I feel, what I know, what I want.
I want... to be happy, to be content, to be loved.
I care... deeply, fully, intimately.
I love... unconditionally, intensely, with every part of me.
I see... you, me, us.
I deserve... all of the above.
I give... everything I can, so much of myself, all of my heart.
I share... everything, anything, the best of me.
I say... what I feel, what I know, what I want.
I want... to be happy, to be content, to be loved.
I care... deeply, fully, intimately.
I love... unconditionally, intensely, with every part of me.
I see... you, me, us.
I deserve... all of the above.
Thursday, October 25, 2007
In the blink of an eye
When I write blogs, they are usually about life, happiness, sadness, love and learning. This one is no different.
Don't get me wrong, right now life is wonderful to say the least. I'm happy, enjoying my job, love Sacramento and have a wonderful network of family and friends who love me. But in the blink of an eye, the world I was living in changed. Now, don't worry... this wasn't a traumatic experience... it wasn't a loss really... it was more of a reality check of what I thought someone was and what I realized maybe they aren't.
It can be a really sad experience when you realize that your world isn't going as you thought it was. It can be really frustrating when you see that what you thought you had in your life is actually not that at all. I'm learning that even though you may trust someone, believe the things they tell you, and feel you are on the same page... they could change and go in a different direction at any time.
I have a high amount of faith in people. I believe that the people in my life are genuinely good and truly care about me and my feelings. I try to surround myself with these people because they make my life healthy. Maybe this makes me naive... maybe I'm just far too trustworthy of people... but I want to believe that everyone is good to some extent.
I know that most things in life don't go as planned. I have come to accept that, but when you see things going in a positive direction, why is it that things change so suddenly without explanation? I guess that is one of the mysteries of life, love and the pursuit of happiness... you never know what life is going to hand you, you just have to trust the people around you and know that if one of them hurts you... you are surrounded by many others who will hug you, tell you it's okay, and help you onto a new path.
As I said in my last blog, my life was recently on a negative path and then took a turn for the better thanks to someone helping me open my eyes. I realize now that I get to choose who I want in my life... I get to invite them in, share things with them and give them a piece of me. It is, however, their decision if they want to accept that piece.
I'm thankful to the people who have helped me... especially the most recent one... but do hope they see that their actions don't only affect them... they affect others as well. They don't only make them happy but can make others sad and confused.
Life can change in the blink of an eye... you just never know which blink it will be.
Don't get me wrong, right now life is wonderful to say the least. I'm happy, enjoying my job, love Sacramento and have a wonderful network of family and friends who love me. But in the blink of an eye, the world I was living in changed. Now, don't worry... this wasn't a traumatic experience... it wasn't a loss really... it was more of a reality check of what I thought someone was and what I realized maybe they aren't.
It can be a really sad experience when you realize that your world isn't going as you thought it was. It can be really frustrating when you see that what you thought you had in your life is actually not that at all. I'm learning that even though you may trust someone, believe the things they tell you, and feel you are on the same page... they could change and go in a different direction at any time.
I have a high amount of faith in people. I believe that the people in my life are genuinely good and truly care about me and my feelings. I try to surround myself with these people because they make my life healthy. Maybe this makes me naive... maybe I'm just far too trustworthy of people... but I want to believe that everyone is good to some extent.
I know that most things in life don't go as planned. I have come to accept that, but when you see things going in a positive direction, why is it that things change so suddenly without explanation? I guess that is one of the mysteries of life, love and the pursuit of happiness... you never know what life is going to hand you, you just have to trust the people around you and know that if one of them hurts you... you are surrounded by many others who will hug you, tell you it's okay, and help you onto a new path.
As I said in my last blog, my life was recently on a negative path and then took a turn for the better thanks to someone helping me open my eyes. I realize now that I get to choose who I want in my life... I get to invite them in, share things with them and give them a piece of me. It is, however, their decision if they want to accept that piece.
I'm thankful to the people who have helped me... especially the most recent one... but do hope they see that their actions don't only affect them... they affect others as well. They don't only make them happy but can make others sad and confused.
Life can change in the blink of an eye... you just never know which blink it will be.
Monday, October 8, 2007
Life is good
So... life is good.
That's the easiest way to put what I am feeling right now. My life is on a huge uphill slide and makes me smile every day.
First things first... I ran the 5K in the Cowtown Marathon and came in with a pretty good time. Not my best but good enough. I'm happy about it and ready to keep training for the next race. I have found a new love of running. After a long hectic day there is nothing I would rather do than put on my Saucony's and run a couple miles to burn off some steam and cool down.
I have realized a lot of things in the past week or so. The first is that I don't need to wait around for someone to love me. Those things happen on their own and if you have to wait for someone, then you are just wasting your time because you shouldn't have to wait. This is something that has been a long time coming and even though I have pushed for it to happen several times and known it probably wasn't the best thing, I now know that the decision I made two months ago to move on with my life was the best way to go. I've also seen that compromising yourself to try and make someone else happy and help them fit in is not the answer. Sometimes love just isn't enough and it takes a little spark from someone else for you to realize that your instincts were right all along. Yes, friendship will always be there, and a bit of love, but I'm on to bigger and better things in my life with people who truly want to get to know me for the wonderful woman I am. I couldn't ask for more... and I'm smiling all the time now... ;) and it feels so good.
Everything else is falling into place. When I'm happy I just feel healthier, smile more, am not angry and genuinely love my life. I couldn't ask to be in a better place and regardless of what the next days, weeks, months, etc. hold for me, I know that I will be happy and can continue to make good things happen in my life. I am blessed with wonderful friends and family and people who make me smile. That's what truly matters... being happy in life and living without regret.
Someone recently said to me that what's important is "loving life and good people like yourself"... that really hit me in the fact that living life to the fullest is important and more than that, surrounding yourself with good people who make you smile. Again... I'm happier than I've been in a long time. Life is not only good, but great right now and I can't wait to find out what's next for me.
That's the easiest way to put what I am feeling right now. My life is on a huge uphill slide and makes me smile every day.
First things first... I ran the 5K in the Cowtown Marathon and came in with a pretty good time. Not my best but good enough. I'm happy about it and ready to keep training for the next race. I have found a new love of running. After a long hectic day there is nothing I would rather do than put on my Saucony's and run a couple miles to burn off some steam and cool down.
I have realized a lot of things in the past week or so. The first is that I don't need to wait around for someone to love me. Those things happen on their own and if you have to wait for someone, then you are just wasting your time because you shouldn't have to wait. This is something that has been a long time coming and even though I have pushed for it to happen several times and known it probably wasn't the best thing, I now know that the decision I made two months ago to move on with my life was the best way to go. I've also seen that compromising yourself to try and make someone else happy and help them fit in is not the answer. Sometimes love just isn't enough and it takes a little spark from someone else for you to realize that your instincts were right all along. Yes, friendship will always be there, and a bit of love, but I'm on to bigger and better things in my life with people who truly want to get to know me for the wonderful woman I am. I couldn't ask for more... and I'm smiling all the time now... ;) and it feels so good.
Everything else is falling into place. When I'm happy I just feel healthier, smile more, am not angry and genuinely love my life. I couldn't ask to be in a better place and regardless of what the next days, weeks, months, etc. hold for me, I know that I will be happy and can continue to make good things happen in my life. I am blessed with wonderful friends and family and people who make me smile. That's what truly matters... being happy in life and living without regret.
Someone recently said to me that what's important is "loving life and good people like yourself"... that really hit me in the fact that living life to the fullest is important and more than that, surrounding yourself with good people who make you smile. Again... I'm happier than I've been in a long time. Life is not only good, but great right now and I can't wait to find out what's next for me.
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